Not this month...

Well, we tried and failed this month. I jokingly told Amber she jinxed me...they are also trying and she got her period two days ago. I woke up this morning, and guess what!!!


I'm upset, because I really want another child. The what-ifs crept in, too.

"What if I can't have any more kids? What if I''ve stopped ovulating? What if there's something wrong with me? What if it was a one time thing?"

Ugh. Part of me wants to just admit defeat and be done, but I know that isn't the answer. I'm just frustrated. It seems like so many others don't even try but get blessed anyway.

Am I wrong for feeling like this??